Sorry, it has been a while. In fact, probably a good six or seven years since I published anything here… on my turf.
There are plenty of excuses… like:
- starting a business;
- finishing a thesis;
- building an international team;
- self publishing a book;
- picking up some global awards;
- selling a business…
… just to name a few, with a sprinkling of family time in there too.
To be honest, when I started Adopt & Embrace, I had visions of documenting the journey regularly. I deleted the 200 or so posts I had shared here from 2006 through until 2015, so I could start fresh and share the story. And did so for the first few months. But for reasons unknown I didn’t post them here. Those posts are now in the depths of LinkedIn, cursed by the algorithm to never see the light of day unless you really go looking for them.
As I got busier, the regularity of my posts diminished significantly. And most of my commentary, ideas, or random threads of thought that I did share with the world are pretty much lost, floating around in the databases of Twitter, LinkedIn, and YouTube, hidden from view unless you really go searching for them.
Ideas living in a rented space (albeit free, but full of distractions), that don’t have the longevity of a post… on your own turf.
So why start writing again today?
Today marks 10 weeks since I signed the contract to sell Adopt & Embrace to Rapid Circle. Tales from the business sale are worth a few posts another time (“7 lessons learned from selling a business during a Pandemic – you wont believe #6!”)… but the impact of the sale is what I am focused on today.
The cognitive load of running a business has now been lifted, and the pressure of being a ‘solo entrepreneur’ with a family to support at the same time has been released. With a larger team around us as part of the Rapid Circle family, a lot of the things that eventually were left to me, are now being taken care of by people far more competent and capable than I ever was.
And I am thankful that I don’t have to look at a business bank account any more and wonder if we need to put payroll on the credit card (only happened twice, but when you are literally, and figuratively ‘betting your house’ on an idea, the anxiety it creates is very overwhelming).
My identity has been caught up in the machine that is Adopt & Embrace… and that is slowly untangling itself.
This has created a strange feeling. One of personal freedom, but one of being lost at the same time. Over the past few weeks I have really been struggling. The transition from entrepreneur to employee hasn’t necessarily been bad (quite good in fact, the team at Rapid Circle have been incredible)… but there is a hole now in my non-work world that needs to be filled. I didn’t really have time for any hobbies outside of running the business (apart from inconsistent exercise), and it is clear now that I have more time that I really should have at least one, if not more hobbies or projects to keep me occupied
Case in point, I have started to notice that instead of my time being put to productive use (either resting, or contributing something), it has very quickly filled with doom scrolling all of the social platforms for hours per night. Not a healthy habit for the mind. I have read Deep Work by Cal Newport at least 3 times. In fact it sits pride of place on the bookshelf beside me… visible in every video call I am in… yet I am falling into the traps of an ever connected world that distract you from making an impact.
So… getting back into writing here I hope, will help me find that purpose. If all else fails, if it gets me away from trying to get minute by minute updates on the Evergrande crisis on Reddit, or looking at the same posts that were on Instagram 15 minutes ago… it will be a success.
Hopefully though, my rambling thoughts and perspectives on work, technology, life… things I am reading, conversations I am having, experiments I am jumping into etc. are of value to someone out there. Maybe not today, but sometime when they stumble across the content in the future.
Hat tip to Helen Blunden, and Simon Terry… who have both inspired me by their ability to consistently share with the broader community via their own platforms for years. My hope is that this stream of consciousness is half as valuable as the content you have produced over the years.